What I love about blogging is that I get to share with y'all the things I love, people I admire and experiences I've had. We are living in a world where many things are out of our control so having this platform is something I hold close to my heart. It's hard to regulate the narrative outside these pages so I take comfort in knowing I'm in control of the words I put on here.
I tend to write about things that interest me or I think you would find helpful i.e. my favorite foods and shoes ;) However, I noticed lately I hadn't written anything "from the heart" and typically I can pump these essays out with ease. It made me reflect for a while on why I was troubled and led me down a rabbit hole filled with my own thoughts. I realized for the past few months I'd been bottling up a lot of negative energies, thoughts, feelings and emotions that I didn't want to deal with---the thought of un-bottling them made me feel sick. My thought was if I keep pushing them aside they'll eventually go away. But boy was I wrong!
The stress that was created by the things I tried to avoid was actually causing more stress. It started to change who I am and the way I interacted with some of my favorite people. When I realized that I was just going through the motions of the day instead of enjoying and LIVING for the day, I knew I had a problem.
The effects that stress and negativity can have on your life when you allow them to consume it are incredible. Feeding into it is easy, getting out of it takes courage, self awareness and love for oneself. The adversities I'm learning to cope with come from relationships, working environments, politics, world events, the pandemic, Facebook etc.---the noise is constantly surrounding us!
I've learned that in most situations there's only one thing you can control and that is how you will react, both physically and mentally. People will try to write and tell your narrative but it's up to you to live the truth. There will always be two versions to the story with conflicting opinions, thoughts and feelings---but that's not for you to worry about it. You are not responsible for anyone else's actions or thoughts, just your own.
Realizing this has helped me let go of the elements that were restricting me from experiencing the things I love to do and feel. Making new connections, trying new things with an open heart, being fearless---the things that make me who I am.
I’m a firm believer in things happening for a reason, both good and bad. There’s always something to learn and the lessons are what we should hold onto. Letting go of the things or people that don’t serve us well is easier said than done, but like many of my favorite yogis have taught me---you need to exhale the bad and breathe in the good.
It's no one's, or anythings fault but my own for letting myself get consumed by the power of negativity. It's a lesson I've learned and something I will continue to grow from. During a time when it feels like we can't quiet the noise around us, I like to read this quote...
"Next time you're stressed take a step back, inhale and laugh. Remember who you are and why you're here. You're never given anything in this world that you can't handle. Be strong, be flexible, love yourself and love others. Always remember, just keep moving forward."